As I grow older, I notice that my body is changing. One of the things I have noticed is that my body has become lactose sensitive. I say lactose sensitive because I am not quite ready to admit that I may be lactose intolerant.
Most nights I come home and enjoy a nice glass of milk in the evening. I am starting to accept the fact that these days are over. This change is hard on me.
In the past, when change happened, I would fight against it. I would become angry at the world mostly myself. My anger turned inward exasperating my depression. Since change is a constant, this became a vicious cycle.
Today, I am concentrating on things that are positive in my life. I have a lot to be grateful for. My health is overall very good. I will more confident now than I have been in my 53 years. I have a strong support network that includes a wonderful partner and a one year old grandson.
Overall I feel healthy, confident, self assured and not 53 years old.
Changes are hard, but they are inevitable. When changes would occur in the past I reacted negatively and lashed out. I took change personally. I would stew, fester and let the situation linger. I would try to illicit sympathy when none was warranted. And for what. It just got me worked up for no reason.
It is not what happens to you it is how you react to it.
Now I am more willing to accept change to look at it from the positive. To embrace change, even though changes are difficult. The easier change is accepted the better the outcome will be. I focus on what I can control and I leave what I can not control to fate.
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