People change, times change, I change and continue to day in and day out. There was a time in my life when I was incredibly black and white. I made up my mind on something or someone and it’s was near impossible to get me to move off that opinion or person.
Tonight is the premiere of the new season of Survivor. I am looking forward to it. Watching the social dynamics unfold and seeing how the group gets along with each other is akin to what happens in society today. All the characters are played to a tee and relatable to society today. There was a time when I wouldn’t watch because it was all fixed and predetermined and scripted for TV entertainment purposes and looked down on anyone who watched it.
If I hadn’t changed my opinion of one person I would have not found my soulmate, my sweetie, my rock. I would not have known and remember her wonderful mother and know her amazing children and awesome grandson who I love and adore and has taught me so much about love and life in a few short years. The opportunities garnered over the last 10 years. I feel blessed.
Last night I had the pleasure of hearing her present a workshop on addictions. I was fondly referenced warts and all. She grabbed the audience and kept them rapt for 2 hours. Her wisdom, knowledge, compassion, empathy struck a positive chord with the audience. It was a great learning experience for all.
I am learning not to prejudge and realize all my previous prejudgements were wrong. I talk to strangers, say hi to people on the street. They either don’t acknowledge, walk with head down, mumble a hi back or have smiles on their faces and say hi back. I wish them a good day. A few years ago I would not acknowledge people because of fear and hearing voices from my family of origin saying “Don’t talk to Strangers”. Why? Strangers are friends we haven’t met.
I have changed and for the better. I am in touch with my feelings, emotions and fears. I have embraced who I am. I am open with my depression. I recognize that my past is my past and that I don’t have to be stuck there. I can recognize and evolve and learn from it. Each day nuggets are churned up. Some good, some bad, some sad. In some people’s world I no longer fit in and that is fine with me. In many other people’s world I do fit in, thrive, evolve and discover.
Change is constant, it is how we deal with it that is important. I am choosing to be kind to everyone and especially myself.
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