Taking the Plunge

2017 has started with a bang, I proposed to my partner of 6 and a half years. She said yes.

I was confident of her positive response. In true Shelley fashion, she milked the situation by having an awkward silence of about 20 seconds.

I got down on one knee and presented the ring saying how much she means to me and how far we have grown together. How far we will go together. I love her very much and we complete each other. Shelley is my rock, keeps me grounded, provides inspiration and is not afraid to kick me in my ass when I need it.

Most of my friends had an inkling this moment was coming and are very excited for the 2 of us. One of my social media friends said it was my best move in years. I have been calling Shelley my fiancé and we both have smiles on our faces. I think she is more excited for me as  it is my first marriage (second engagement) and her second marriage.

One of my work friends said " well you are no longer on the market" I have not considered myself  in the market even when I was single. You see for the longest time I was shy and reserved and had trouble communicating with women. Strong women I found myself intimidated by and had a hard time relating and interacting with them.

I was not a player, didn't have many girlfriends 7 in total before Shelley. I have had a few dalliances and 2 one night stands. Around women I wad always full of hope and ended up trying to hard to impress that I would screw it up. I had many first dates, a few second dates and 7 girlfriends. Shelley has been my longest relationship.

So yes I was not in the market, I was on the periphery of the market. Everything changed when I met Shelley and more importantly after I came in touch and diagnosed with my depression.

I began to understand and recognize how messed up I was. Another work friend said " she has not seen me happier and confident than at this time in my life". A third work friend said " I am glad to know you, you are a great guy Andrew".

In the past, I would have dismissed compliments and done everything to negate the compliment. Now I am accepting of compliments. It is true, what you put out people see and you get back.

I am loving life right now and accepting of how life affects me and how I affect other people.