Actions Have Consequences

A very powerful statement " Actions Have Consequences". These consequences can be both positive and negative. They can affect the masses or a few select people. They can be far reaching or extremely localized.

I have come to understand and appreciate the significance of my actions. Since January 1, my sweetie and I have been compiling a list of all our positive actions. After 6 months we have quite the list.

Conversely some of my actions have ended up with negative consequences. Most significant because of my loose lips I lost a friendship. I said some things that I wish I could take back the minute they come out of my mouth. The damage had already been done.

I am a huge sports fan, in particular, soccer and have been fascinated with the World Cup. Cheering loudly for teams I want to advance and watching the heartbreak and anguish when teams do not win or advance in the tournament. Some players actions have led to their teams failure to advance. Other players actions have led to them crying wolf one too many times and not ending up with the benefit of the doubt in the referees eyes.

On the world stage we have seen the USA President impose tariffs on countries and yet seems bewildered when these countries impose tariffs right back on the USA. His actions have far reaching consequences on a global perspective. Most of them are detrimental.

For me, after losing my friendship I went into a mini tailspin. There is no slippery slope for me I slip into a downward spiral very quickly. It affected my interactions with my sweetie, the negative energy emanating from me can be seen a mile away. Karma can be such a curse. What you put out you get back. Further negative actions on my part only compounded the issue. It affects all aspects of my life. Family, work and social. Sometimes I feel like a powder keg ready to explode. I don't want to.

Negative thoughts pervade my brain, I am at the same time being mindful of watching what comes out of my mouth. It has gotten so bad that my sweetie and I rehearse conversations. I am so lucky to have her in my life as the loving supportive partner.

This is what depression does to me.