Abundance and Gratitude

I am going back to work tomorrow after being off for two weeks for me and my mental health. My sweetie asked if I am ready. I said yes. Am I nervous and apprehensive you bet.

Some of the questions going through my mind are what shape will my caseload be in? How will my coworkers react to having me back? How will the manager be towards me? Am I ready? 

It has been a good two weeks focusing on me. Had EAP, group session at Mood Disorders, coffee with good friends. Chance meeting with Dawn. Played poker several times and won twice. Did some blogging, resting, reflection. Shared my story at a middle school for two classes. Supportive of Shelley and all she does.  

Take aways for me are that I am loved and supported. I am strong, kind, positive and give of my time to support and help others. I am grateful for so much in this world and in my life. I am grateful for my sweetie Shelley. I don’t give her enough credit for everything she does. I am grateful for our grandson Ollie who has taught me so many life lessons. He gives and wants love. Ollie hugs are the best. Even when he is not with us physically we talk to him and act like he is with us. I am grateful for my career in healthcare and the support from my staff and colleagues. I am grateful for the many friends who have reached out to offer support. I am also grateful that Shelley’s children are cutting their own niche in life and are contributing positively to society. I value and appreciate you all.

I have learned to appreciate my life is full of abundance and gratitude. This took awhile for me to come around. 

My life is full. I have an abundance of friends, activities, interests that are varied and different. It is still a work in progress. My mental health took a hit over the last 4 weeks. I am more aware of the signs, symptoms and triggers. 

Triggers for me are my fears. Fear of the unknown, fear of money (being a slave to it) putting too much emphasis on what I don’t have.  Learning to sacrifice. Placing Shelley and my life a priority. Doing what is right and positive. Learning to think before I act/speak. Stand up to people who don’t treat us properly. Create boundaries with people who are negative, narcissistic and toxic.

Be kind, be positive, be alive and active. Live from abundance and gratitude. All easier said than done. I am flawed and a work in progress. I am enjoying my life warts and all.